Fraternity

So i have gotten addicitred to trying to control the group... Luckly i am failing beyond any belief. I no longer feel comfortable in the group and my ego is telling me to stop going. Trufully things are going to just get worse until i learn to let go of the ego in this area of my life. My ego is completelly addicted to controlling group atmosphers. I dont go for my own enjoyment but instead to gain some form of social recongnition... I need to go to events not for social recongition but for enjoyment of talking to others. Being social for the sake of being social. No mission but instead to just enjoy... When not to go to events? When i am looking to value take or looking to control or when i am to tired to go to things. Then i should not go ... I am not there to enjoy but there out of a hidden ego... Cheers

You never will knowyourself but you should know your body

Lately the fountain has truely run dry... I am Fuckin exhuasted and feel overwhlemed.. I dont give myself breaks and it has taken a toll on my body.. It it very hard for me to do nothing... But i must learn to do exactely that... Give my self breaks. For me i rest best bymyself away from others. It is a time for me to clear my mind and just relax.. I need to start doing this allot more :)

When the ego comes out

Latley i have been having my ego come out in full force. This blog is to remind me of what i am not. I am not master pua or king of chicks. I am just a normal dude that has inserutiries like everyone else. I am not special or unhuman because of the things i have studied. It can be so easy to let the things i have studied make me a worse peron. WHy? Because when you have knowledge you began to think you know everything and expect the unimpossible from yourself. I need to let this ego go. No more talking about mentorship, pick up, the chicks in my life. I am doing this to feed an insercurity. Let go buddy ..... Truely be free :)

Mindset Shift

We talk about being and not doing.... Well i see it and im amazed.... I am finding myself becomming more and more centered. I feel the need to impress less and less.. I view myself as much more self worthy and relaxed. I feel my options with women is abudant. That i literally have thousands to choose from. So why is this happening? Being relaxed... I cant stress this enough... Learning to relax and just enjoy... Dont be reactive to anything just enjoy and take right action.... I am seeing this in a ton of areas in my life....From women, to finance to friends to strangers... I am allot more interested in what others have to say.. I am a listerner and a leader. I put no rules on myself and i just go with the flow... It feels so good and my anxiexty is at a all time low... I am not one itising or obessing over any women.. I dont care to think about them instead i care to expereience them. I am not looking to others to take traits from cause i feel mine our overly suficient. I feel great :) Ohh and my new place is rad