Being not doing

You cannot create attraction or real hapiniess in your life by doing something. For example you cant just ENTERTAIN her... Well you can but if you are choosing to do it you are truely not acting on your intentions... You cant choose to act on your own intentions.. Once again you are doing something.. Instead you have to become yourself.... SO how does one do this? Well you quit playing by societys rules and began to realze that allot of social condition is WRONG. You quit questioning yourself. You dont trying to figure out what she wants.. You figure out what makes you the most hapniess... SO me - I feel best when i am relaxed.... Calm.. plafyul and genuine with people. When i am going after the things that i want.. When i am truely just resting in the moment...

I see a huge difference in my demener which continously changes- WHen i use to go to clubs.. I had to get really high energy and had TO DO soemthing... I had to talk to girls... I had to entertain her.. I didnt feel much relaxation... Lately it has been the opposite... I dont feel like i have to do shit... My energy level is unique at each time but i am much more relaxed.... Its not that a high or low energy is bad... Its only a problem when you dont feel relaxed... So relaxing has been my most joyful thing as of lately... As i continue to relax .. my body will naturally just feel more comfortable in any given situation which continously will make my experience with people more enjoyable..

Cheers Mark

Ways to relax- Out of head, cooking, music, breathing.. OUt of head... smelling, feel your body.... smiling

The feeling that i cant go on

So a ruff night.... Confused but even now i need to take right action.... I have to let go... I cant keep questioning myself... Questioning yourself states that something is wrong with you and that you need to fix it... When you question yourself you take poor refereence expiereces and then find reason in why you suck,, you will always find flaws if you are looking for them... Instead you have to shift your thinking towards awesomeness. THe more you belive this the more you will naturally gravitate towards cool behaviors... So do what you want.. No guilt no trying to figure things out.... Just do you........ LET GO

Best regards,
Mark Watson

When you're your best you

Simply put.. you are your best you when you dont anlzyle.. you do things cause you want to not because you need to.. Being in your head is a distant thought.. You trust who you are.. You see you are cool not becasue others say so but because your standard is overly sufficneit for youself...Your life is not a bunch of thoughts but actions you take becasue you choose to in the moment..Your actions are doen because of a job but because of a desire... You dont have to worry about your actions in the moment because you are jjust "are cool" its not something you think about it.. its something you are

An ephinay of Ephinays

So i got stood up again.... It got me sad and it got me thinkin about the post i made at DSP retreat. The post was completlely depressing and about how i would always fail at women.. I was a real negative nancy :) The first thing that hit my midn after getting stood up was ... I give up.... I have tried to be this guy that girls like... I limit my humor and myself in order to create what i feel they want... geuss what.. that is exactely the mindset of an entertaimer man... See entertainer man is not living his life for himselelf. he has to constally figure himself out and calibrate... The truth is your life will suck in all areas until you let go of this idenity... To try to impress or to hold your persoanlity back in the name of women is a terrible thing.... Tyler says when you get this figured out "thats its all in your head" is the moment you see just how stupid that is... A part of me thinks that if i just be myself i will resort to acting crazy like some of my experiences in the club.. Well trufully allot of my time in the club was as entertainerman.. I wasn't there for my own fun.. I was there to look for aproval.. For instance me and Johnny were lauhing at the fact that we woudnt allow ourselfs to hang with friends at the club because that would be chode crystaling.. We put rules to everything we did... When you do this... You are automactically a entertainer man.. The picture i saw last night was with the girls i have crushed on with Another man who they were laughing with.. There was no need for seducation.. His enjoyment of his life was what she was falling for.. Not such well played seduction routine that she followed... So i say goodbye.. To a world of constant seeking of aproval, a world of constally questioning who i am .. A world of contant and depress plees for ephianys, a world of holding back from who i am... I give up caring what people think of me :)... My joy needs no ones stamp of approval.. I am Mark David Watson