Saturday, June 25, 2011

MY battle

One of the residuals from the accident. If i make a wrong descison. my father in heaven will leave me....

If i make a wrong descions, even if its unclear, he will storm me in guilt and shame...

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

What story would that boy choose?

A boy his name was Mark. He was 25 and had so much enthusasim. He had just graduated from college and was finally set free to do the passion of his heart. His father put him in this world to be free and to chase his dreams. His dad gave him an overwhelming amount of gifts. His dad built him to lead, to be financially free, to overwhelm people with his passionate speacehs and so much more..... His dad wanted him to be a slave to nothing.. To enspire men to know his father because his dad had given his gift to the masses...

Unfortunately, he choose to settle with a decent life.. He wasn't willing to step up and take on the challenge. He crawled into his rabit whole and hid from the world. He spent 12 hours a day on the computer. His frustraton began to build as he knew his life was not turning out the way his dad had inteneded... AS his frustartion began to build, so did the joy in his life and so did his abilities.. Instead of being financially free he was in heavy debt of 20k dollars... He was in tremendous back pain from lack of working out... He was socially shy because he was embarassed with his own life....

Many many years from now yet they went by so quick... He laid in his bed at the rype age of 72 and died.... He saw his dad that stilled loved him uncodintional but sad that his son had not been a better steward with his time... As his dad ask what he had done with his life.... The boy say there and had no answer... He had ran from his heart and knew that he desprately needed it back...

His dad said "Mark on earth i had many adventures for US to do together. I wanted to have you speak in front of crowds and inspire them.. I wanted to use you to free peopel from slavery to money.. I wanted you to have an incrediable wife who was passionate about me.. She was going to be expression of my love towards you... I wanted to give you an incrediable community of belivers and soon to be belivers... Who would see me when they saw you! I wanted to shine my light threw you... I wanted to take you out of darkness of your one bedroom shack you live in by yourself.. i wanted to take you away from being a hermit and feeling lack of a community... I wanted to steward you into becomming a man... I wanted to free you of yoru desire for lust.. I wanted to be free you of insecurites of yourself.. I wanted so so so much more from you.... The boy walked into heavens gates with a sad expression because he could of had an epic journey with his father.. He could of been used to see his friends know his dad.. He fled and now has to live with his actions...


Mark you have a choice to make.. Are you going to continue to run? Or are you going to live the life your father wants for you? a life of stepping it up.. Taking on this life as a overcome not a victim of lies.. Are you going to make excuse???
I would decide soon because you are becoming that old man.....