A hunt for beuty
I have been hearing a call in my heart from God to not date yet. Its not that i coudnt or that he is saying no. I belive he is challenging my heart to find healing when it comes to women. We all have our hurts and our hiccups and mine had a great wound when it comes to women. I have searched high and low to answer these wounds and nothing has worked.

I am currently reading the book Capitcated by Stat and John Elderidge. The part this is speaking out to be is how women want to be a needed part of the journey.

God has the feminie quanities of wanted to be desired and to be recongize for his beautfy. I belvie God is speaking to be that i need to find my beatufy first in God. I went for a walk and began to see how much God lavishes beatufy all over creation. He is showing us a piece of him and aching our hearts to chase after more. I belive God is calling me to chase after his beauty at the moment. To explore new areas and experince his beatufy. This is something i have never done. I have always been to focused on carrer ext and really not let this part of my soul enjoy the true beatiful and radiance of God.

Even look at Adam, God loaded up the garden of Eden with beatufy that the heart cant imagine, after Adam began to experienece the amazing beatufy laid before him.. Was he finally ready for Eve.

I am going to take the same approach

I belvie this will create a heart that knows God beatufy first and then can handle the expression of beatufy that a women has to offer. My heart only currenly knows one part of beauty and needs to experience all God beatuy...